I had another snow (ICE) day today. It has been nice to have an easy work week and some time off at home. I can't say that I have accomplished much but it has been nice to have some time to reflect on the the holidays. I have spent a lot of time thinking about how much I want to have children. It is hard on days when I am sitting at home thinking of all of the fun things we could be doing on snow days. If I had kids I would wake up and make a big breakfast for us, we could bake cookies, stay in our pajamas, watch movies, and play in the snow. I have told myself many times today that I know God has a plan for us. I know he is waiting until the right time to give us children. (I refuse to let myself think that it is in his plan that we do not have children) We were raised Catholic and our parents took us to church every Sunday when we were growing up but since we have been married we have not made it a priority to go to church. When we do go I feel like I get something out of it and I feel better after we go. We just need to go more often.
Lately, I have been thinking about people who have lost children since last Christmas. A girl that I knew in high school lost her baby to SIDS right after Christmas last year. I just think about the pain she must be going through. My dad's cousin also lost her daughter in April. She was 7 an was hit by a truck while riding her bike. Her mom, dad, and brother are still having a terrible time dealing with what happened. I cannot imagine going through this pain. Please pray for these families this holiday season.